Fear

A friend said to me recently, "I am no longer afraid."

"Wow." I thought. "What a huge announcement to make to the world."

I have spent the last 9 years desperately working to heal. Heal lonliness, anger, resentment, hostility, frustration...all bi-produsts of one thing. Fear. The ultimate healing goal...heal your fear.

Step one...identify your fear. Ouch.

Pretty much I have experienced all the things I fear the worst. Failed relationships, abandonment, destitution, illness and death of someone close to me. What is left to be afraid of? well, I guess, I fear failure most of all. Guess what? I failed my work at home project, now I work 7 days a week at a "job" and I am barely able to pay my nut...but... I am alive, and I FEEL alive. I fear failing in a relationship. I fear rejection. I fear being utterly alone. I fear being manipulated.

Step two...gulp. Face your fear.

Walk right up to it, like Daniel faced the lion, like David faced Goliath. Face it and say..."what is the WORST that can happen?

Step three...choose differently. Perhaps this is the hardest of all. Its hard because you have to choose every minute of every day. You have to choose your experience of love instead of fear.

"How do I do this?" You may ask. The answer is...wake up. Stop living with that egotistical little monster in your head that says "this will never work, you are not smart enough, remember what happened last time!" Wake up and breathe, talk to God, ask for guideance and wisdom, stop hanging out with the people who want and need to bring you down, seek others of like mind, read books, write, explore, feel and grow. Keep planting seeds and watering them. When you go to sleep, say "thank you", when you wake up say "thank you", when your child hugs you...hug back. Put anger away, and start communicating. Those who don't want to communicate will go away. Love yourself and you will become a magnet. (Many of you need to read that last sentence again and again). Thats right...LOVE YOURSELF.